Tuesday, September 30, 2008
~ 9:41 PM ~
since there isnt any sch tmr.
thought i'll take a bit of time.
to just pour out some of e thoughts n feelings hidden within.
before heading back to study.
today marks e end of our yr of GP tutorial wit miss raj.
the things she said at e end of e lesson made me think back bout these two yrs.
particularly, this yr.
its surprising how these two yrs have came n gone.
its really a swift process.
e thoughts of what has happened over the two yrs remain vividly in my mind.
painful as this journey appears to b.
tiring as this road seems like.
sometimes its only when things come to an official end do i wonder y im feeling this way.
i've met great teachers.
teachers who gave advice to me when im in a dilemma.
teachers who pushed me on when i feel like giving up.
teachers who spent endless time to make sure i get my concepts right.
teachers who make my days in sch worth remembering.
its indeed a painful journey.
frm succeeding to failing.
frm falling to climbing up.
perhaps till now no one can really explain how it feels like within.
but i brought away wit me an impt lesson.
a lesson tat probably would come in handy in e yrs to come.
e lesson of not letting one's failure bring down all the hope tat could possibly come after tat.
frm 1S05.
to 1S20.
then now 2S17.
things have changed.
people changes, environment changes.
no expectation for things to remain the same forever.
cos i noe its impossible.
but yet when i see how things changed, i tend to wonder y.
its competitive.
n perhaps there exist some individuals who r chasing their individual dreams.
this class might not appear like one.
but i'll never forget all e laughters we shared during tutorials.
n e fair share of fun i have in this class.
there will still bound to b regrets.
just like i wonder if things might b better elsewhere.
though i noe it might not necessarily b so.
as i head towards this final month of my journey as a JC student.
i sat n ask myself..
wad did i set out to achieve right frm e start?
e dream, e goal, e target.
at tat point in time when it seems so possible, so hopeful.
right now, its finally time to make things come true.
but e process of falling made me question my ability.
until i realise if i never learn to walk out of this darkness..
i'll never noe how bright e world will b.
its perhaps a matter of perspective.
n a matter of how i wan to think bout such stuffs.
its e final lap.
e last sprint towards e end point i've always longed to reach successfully.
its not just bout how well i wanna do.
but how much i wanna get there.
last 34 days for me to make everything possible.
there isnt any second chance.
do it once n for all..
or i'll regret it for life.
work hard ppl.
we're all in this together.
no one run this race alone.
we started this journey together.
n we'll end it well..Labels: -
.sheena.
